I don’t know if anyone will be reading this now because I’ve been gone for so long, but it’s just an update.
I haven’t been reading – at all. Hence no blog posts lol. I have tried, but sadly failed.
On the topic of guys… yes, it always comes back to that with me doesn’t it? Remember Captain America? Well, after a long time we finally had time to meet up. I was at work in a few hours so it wasn’t for long, but it was enough. Well, it was magical. It was everything I thought I wanted. It was like a dream. That was almost three weeks ago now and he hasn’t called. Heh. Yes, I gave him the benefit of the doubt but I think this definitely shows he’s not interested and I can do better. I’m just having trouble getting over him now. Aside from communication problems he’s an angel. How do you get over an angel?
I’ll be honest, I’ve got it bad. I’ve tried in the past (as you know) to get over him unsuccessfully. Problem is he’s a gentleman when you’re with him, he’s protective, funny, blah blah blah. You get the picture. Oh, and fit as F. Rare combo. So… how do I get over this handsome Lithuanian angel? Staying in my home town isn’t working. I’ve tried working constantly, even at home. I took on an extra workload (and did a shit load of work) which lead to me blogging less due to lack of time. I’ve tried burying myself in my hobbies, I started another cross stitch just for myself. I’m making keen progress but it isn’t distracting enough. Been meeting up with many friends, but the topic always turns to him.
I’m going to Lithuania.
Yes, I’m going to Lithuania. I’m going to finally have a holiday this year. I’ve picked Lithuania on purpose so I can prove to myself there’s nothing special about him. It’s meant to be a beautiful country steeped in history so I’m going to make the most of it with my history/architecture-loving nature. One of my Lithuanian friends even recommended me a good hotel smack in the city centre 🙂 My theory is… back in the day when I suffered with depression I went to Rome, I believe it cured me. I came back a different person. I’m hoping this will do the same. I literally booked this holiday Tuesday morning for Friday. Soooo spontaneous! I feel like a crazy woman! lol.
A holiday won’t do me any harm. I’m hoping it will fix what feels broken and I can reassert my independence. My mind won’t keep wandering. Then I can finally let go, relax, and wait for a worthy suitor 🙂
God I’m way too man-obsessed at the moment. See why I need a holiday?! Hah!
So yeah, that’s me. I haven’t moped really or cried in the slightest. It’s just the mind-wandering I can’t stand. He doesn’t deserve my time. I need to be me again.
So, while I’m away I’ll be staying in Vilnius. I have a day-trip booked to see Trakai and Kernave. Saturday night there’s the basketball on, Lithuania vs. Spain. It’s their national sport so I’m going to see if I can find a local bar to watch it in and enjoy the atmosphere 🙂
I hope you’re all well.
The crazy part? I don’t regret a moment of this hurricane.